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Just gonna stand there and watch me burn End of life and all my wishes go unheard They just prolong me and don’t ask why It’s not right because this ain’t the way to die, ain’t the way to die
I can’t tell you what I really want You can only guess what it feels like And right now it’s a steel knife in my windpipe I can’t breathe but ya still fight ‘cause ya can fight Long as the wrong’s done right—protocol’s tight High off of drugs, try to sedate I’m like a pincushion, I hate it, the more I suffer I suffocate And right before I’m about to die, you resuscitate me You think you’ve saved me, and I hate it, wait… Let me go, I’m leaving you—no I ain’t Tube is out, you put it right back, here we go again It’s so insane, ’cause though you think it’s good, I’m so in pain I’m more machine than man now, I’m Anakin But no advanced directive, I feel so ashamed And, crap, who’s that nurse? I don’t even know her name You lay hands on me, to prolong my life again I guess you must think that this is livin’…
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn End of life and all my wishes go unheard They just prolong me and don’t ask why It’s my right to choose the way that I should die
You ever love somebody so much, you can barely see when you with ‘em That they, lay sick and dying but you just don’t wanna let ‘em Be at peace cause you miss ‘em already and they ain’t gone Beep beep, the ventilator alarms I swore I’d never harm ‘em, never do nothing to hurt ‘em Hippocratic oath primum non nocere now I’m forced just to torture ‘em They push full code, no one knows what his wishes were His sister heard him say once, “I don’t wanna be a vegetable” But no one agrees in the family, his caregiver Kate Wants him comfort care but Aunt Claire lives so far away That her guilt eats her like cancer So she answers, “Wait! I think he’ll wake” Maam, you ain’t even in the state! Palliate, relieve pain, get him home, explain Critical care? Just hypocritical when it’s so insane But they insist I shock his heart again so I persist Guess that’s why they say that love is pain.
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn End of life and all my wishes go unheard They just prolong me and don’t ask why It’s my right to choose the way that I should die The way that I should die